On waiting

Sometimes things don't work out the way you expect.  Things don't really take off the way you had expected. Problems come up.  Parts break, you get distracted, you make a little tiny mistake at the wrong time, the weather makes issues, people can't get there because life happens, we forget stuff.  And so, something doesn't happen the way you hope.  There are times to give up, realize that the cost is not worth it.  Other times though, you just need to keep going.  Because, when you're learning to fly, there are bumps and bruises along the way, but chances are... once you're gliding in the clouds.... you'll forget the little bumps.  

Dream. 

Pray.  

Love.  

Live.  

Or not. 

I keep dreaming of the clouds though.

this week

A quick view at the email I got from the weather network this morning telling me what the weather will be like.  I'll (just me, family staying home) be heading to Ottawa for the greater part of the week... hope it's nice there too.  Let summer come....

Owen's larger world

Owen's riding a two wheeler.  

He rocks.

sometimes you just need to start

So I haven't blogged as much as I would have liked.  I found this little tidbit from Henri Nouwen the other day, and it along with some other things he wrote prompted me to begin again on the blogging thing.  

Life is sometimes overwhelming.  I have found that I have a frustrating tendency towards laziness when I get overwhelmed.  Underachiever might be a way to describe it.  There comes a long list of things that need to be done and I decide I should then do nothing.  Then wait for the pressure of deadlines and other people's strained expectations to move.  This trait of mine, is frustrating to me.  I can only begin to imagine what it's like for those around me, waiting for me.

This, as you would know if you are acquainted with me, is not new.  There are times where I do better than others.  Recently, I read again Psalm 2.  It reminded me of the aspect of life that is like a battle.  Not as in me against you, but as in spiritual battle.  

There are areas of our lives we know need to be worked on.  There are things we know we need to start doing.  There are things we know we need to stop doing.  These are the kind of things that we don't need a sermon, or lightning bolts to show us.  No one else may know about them, but God does.  

Me? I need to work on being disciplined.  In moving towards the things I have as goals and dreams.  It's hard to steer a vehicle that isn't moving.  So I need to keep moving.  I may not have the energy of a three year old wanting to dance (see below - isn't she cute?) but I can keep moving.

A reminder that I need to blog some...

From Henri Nouwen:

Writing to Save the Day 

Writing can be a true spiritual discipline. Writing can help us to concentrate, to get in touch with the deeper stirrings of our hearts, to clarify our minds, to process confusing emotions, to reflect on our experiences, to give artistic expression to what we are living, and to store significant events in our memories. Writing can also be good for others who might read what we write.

Quite often a difficult, painful, or frustrating day can be "redeemed" by writing about it. By writing we can claim what we have lived and thus integrate it more fully into our journeys. Then writing can become lifesaving for us and sometimes for others too.