Part of me is pleased I finally let go of whatever illusion I have of being able to make it through some of these situations by myself, another part is scared of being disappointed. Now, don't get me wrong, I know God is big enough to answer. I have seen God do a lot of really amazing things. I get to see and hear about those things often. But the reasons that I am in the situations I am in, at least the situations I'm concerned about, maybe those reasons haven't been fulfilled yet.
So I wrote out my prayer. I even showed it to my wife. I'm sharing a little of the process with you. It's out there now. I'm not sure how I feel. Relieved, scared, nervous, hopeful, and some other stuff besides.
Of this I am sure though, I will keep striving to know my God. I will do my best to serve him. I will do my best to show others that anything of value in me is because of him.
Tonight, I asked. What will you ask God for? Will you wait? Will you expect? Will you hope? Or will you just throw up some requests and see what sticks and protect yourself from disappointment?
Tonight, I am trying to wait, to trust, to have faith.