Wednesday, June 04, 2008

Tonight I asked...

Tonight, I asked God for some big things.  Things that I have been thinking about for a long time.  Situations I have made a mess of.  Situations I am way over my head in.  In my own life, in the lives of those I serve, and other stuff besides.  Tonight I even asked God for things that I don't need, things I want, luxury items in every sense of the word.
Part of me is pleased I finally let go of whatever illusion I have of being able to make it through some of these situations by myself, another part is scared of being disappointed.  Now, don't get me wrong, I know God is big enough to answer.  I have seen God do a lot of really amazing things.  I get to see and hear about those things often.  But the reasons that I am in the situations I am in, at least the situations I'm concerned about, maybe those reasons haven't been fulfilled yet.  

So I wrote out my prayer.  I even showed it to my wife.  I'm sharing a little of the process with you.  It's out there now.  I'm not sure how I feel.  Relieved, scared, nervous, hopeful, and some other stuff besides.  

Of this I am sure though, I will keep striving to know my God.  I will do my best to serve him.  I will do my best to show others that anything of value in me is because of him.  

Tonight, I asked.  What will you ask God for?  Will you wait?  Will you expect?  Will you hope?  Or will you just throw up some requests and see what sticks and protect yourself from disappointment?
Tonight, I am trying to wait, to trust, to have faith.  
Good night.


Amanda Daybyday said...

I haven't really asked God for anything big lately. Makes me think I need to start waiting on him more. Thanks for the inspiration...and I hope everything falls into place for you Doug.

Tara said...

I love you.

Randall said...

yeah, I hope the same for you as Amanda does.

It feels like the older I get the tougher it gets to ask for the big things, and I don't know why that is.

Maybe less childlike faith, maybe being burned a few times. But it is what it is.

Thanks for the reminder and the challenge.

blessings guy.

Colin Toffelmire said...

I agree with all that's been written so far. And, if it makes you feel any better, from God's point of view your prayers were already "out there" anyways. Blessings brother.